Anxiety...ok
A frustrating, blessed and anxiety ridden week and it’s only tuesday!
My first day of work started yesterday, a bit brain numbing and anxiety provoking. The day went by quick. The anxiety came and went, the more I thought, the more anxious I felt, the less I thought, the less anxiety. Mind keeps racing around the new thought, life, challenges, finances, and responsibilities.
My husband had an endoscopy today, he was nervous I could see it in his face. He had a bad experience with surgery many years ago. I just wanted to hug him and never let him go. I know how anxiety is hell in the body. All went well though, practically all good news! I was lucky enough to get work off today so I can take care of him…
My mind feels strong, my body weak and my emotions flatlined…
Dealing with a horrible PsyD, he filled my meds wrong and I ran out of the proper dose last week and realized the mistake when I was opening the new bottle. It’s been over a week. Feel furious that that would happen and that they took over a week to deal with it even though I called day after day…. I felt stupid because they were treating me so poorly “Oh, your meds are wrong? No no, the doctor changed it otherwise you wouldn’t get that dose….” “He gave that to you, stop calling” “Mam, the Dr isn’t here today” “I already passed it to the nurse, it isn’t my problem”
SCREW THAT! I am sorry I may be sick, but I am not stupid! It should finally be filled tomorrow (high hopes). Anxious about it, nervous and sad I was treated poorly, swept under the rug and not cared for. Needless I am getting rid of that Dr/office/therapist….
Overall I guess I am doing all right…
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