Well…

I don’t really know where to start, as you know these past few days/weeks/months have been insane for me. Since the move I am trying to do more productive things like reading, exercising, researching, yard work, cooking, singing, making a true exercise program that meets my bodies needs. I didn’t realize how weak I have become, after spending many days in bed when at CA and not doing well nothing really except, cooking, laundry, dishes and trash. My muscles have weakened, I wonder if my brain cycles have slowed down too. I have been reading a little bit about lithium, one of the meds I am currently taking and I found out that 1) Lithium makes you age faster 2) lithium can cause bad acne (no wonder I am breaking out!) 3) Lithium makes you gain weight and 4) it tends to make you drowsy, sleepy and gives you a metallic taste in your mouth. Oh, the joys of bipolar and its repercussions that come with it.

Anyways I am trying to get back on a schedule, now that I am in a new state, new house, new surroundings and BUGS; I thought I too can start making changes. I am taking my medications regularly, still working taking it at the same time each day. I am allowing myself to sleep, but not like depression sleep(12-18hrs a day). I am exercising 30 minutes a day six days out of the week. I am eating healthy (with a few tortilla chip episodes, lol). I am researching more on the disease, finding out what can help me manage my BP(bipolar) better. I read that Omega 3’s really help with brain function, also support from family, friends, peers, co-workers, yourself…

I was pondering the other day about my sleep cycles and I realized when I sleep like a normal person (no sleepy drugs), I find that I am not as happy, rested, or even engaged. When I take my Seroquel I sleep wonderful, wake up rested and have gusto to start my day. I never made a connection there. I am also happy to say that I dropped my Klonopin usage from 4mg to 1mg a day. New places can make a huge difference and yes I have been going out and doing things! I have yet to make friends, but am thinking about how I am going to do it. The library is not too far down the road and I seem to see a lot of regulars esp the workers. I have also been wanting to start a group. At first I was thinking a bipolar group, but then I wondered if it would be better to start something that does not revolve around my disease and not to dog anyone, but most people I have met in BP groups have been quite unreliable and honest truth is I am too esp if it is something directly related to my disease. I would like to meet some people that aren’t mentally ill. I cannot believe I said that, it is ironic truly, but the whole truth. Well that’s all for today! To a brighter future!